Most Wonderful Time of the Year?????

There are days I question this description. 

Days when I'm stressed about where to put the Elf on the Shelf; days when I can't figure out how I am going to finish purchasing gifts let ALONE wrap them; bake, take my daughter to see some type of lights display; watch all the favorite holiday shows and still go to bed at a decent hour.

Every other year my immune system decides to go on strike and I usually have the nastiest head cold of "20xx" (insert random year here).

Yet still I forge on with a 1/2 happy heart. Attempting to make Christmas everything magical for my family especially the ever growing 10 year old.

I've developed strength in the last 2 years, perspective, persistence and a new attitude courtesy of Elsa and Anna that makes me feel like Sybil.

One minute I'm all zen and "Screw that, let that shit go and do your own thing---no one will notice if you don't bake 10 dozen sugar cookies this year or even spell names correctly on the gift tags" feeling 10 feet tall and bullet proof when I say it like I LEGIT have my shit together...

30 seconds later---I'm a crying mess of a Mom creating 17 pinterest boards, scheduling no more than 2 hours of sleep for every night from now til December 26th so I can bake, cook, craft, wrap and basically be Suzy Q Holiday Snowflake even though---I get zero joy out of it plus the hell head cold from burning the candle at both ends.

So this year 2015---is the year I take my mental health and well being back.

As of today:

I have already contacted another Mom to ask if she's doing a teacher collection
--cash donation --Check

I have scheduled Zoo Light Night with one of my best friends and her family
--Check

I have semi-decided on a day for ice skating and lights (which both my kids adore)
--Check

I have a day for my son and I to watch our annual Holiday Movie
--Check

I have made my "baking" list and taken it down from 10 varieties to possibly 3
--People love my banana bread --Check

I have found out that my family moved up Christmas to accommodate us all being in the same state
--Awesome and not--gotta be ready a week earlier but now a low key Christmas Eve--check

I have decided gift bags are my friend
--Simple as shit--check

My holidays this year will be about our traditions.  Not about what I bake, or how many parties we attend or what the presents looked like--or even what they are.  I won't worry about place settings or napkin designs or any of that stuff---truth be told I do not care if we eat pizza from the box as long as my family is together.

This year it will be about my family, my friends and my moments that I KNOW I can't get back. 

So this year...will be the most wonderful time of the year because I choose hope and joy.

Inspiration in Obvious Places

Sometimes I'm not witty enough for a comeback in the drive thru when someone is being a complete douche nozzle so trying to keep up with a blog seems daunting. I am not that funny...(my husband would love that because he's a lot like Chandler from Friends--he has to be the funny one)

Then I remember...I'm me---

I work 60+ hours, have a pre-teen daughter, a grown son, an ex-husband, cray cray running through my veins and I run a Weight Watcher forum with 30,000+ members...I CAN do this.

There was a text I got from my sister--which by the way is her own version of hot mess...but she's a BADASS!  Love you Shannon...

and also a good sweet friend from my childhood to remind me that I may not be the funniest, smartest or logical person at any given time but I am me, I am worthy and I have something to say. 

You'll scroll down this blog to see there isn't much there..I go in and out.  Over the last few years I had a very ALL or NOTHING mentality.  If I couldn't give 100% and blog nearly everyday then it wasn't worth it.

Guess what, not so much anymore.

I will simply blog as I see fit.

I talk a good game on my Facebook about raising a "I Am Woman, Hear Me Roar" daughter.  Over the last year I have developed into a good example of that...in certain places...perhaps this blog is the next step.

So you--yeah you---go out there and don't forget to be awesome!  Even if you get 2 steps and go flying flat on your face. 

Do your thing, be you and even if you reach just ONE person ---you make a difference.